Imperfection Promotes Creativity
My name is Janine, and I’m a perfectionist.
My novel writing has come to a halt because I was petrified with worry about how it would turn out. What would happen if I wrote an entire novel and it was… bad? Like, really bad? My main problem with my novel wasn’t about the ideas or deciding how to go about it. It was about needing the first draft to be perfect. And that need almost killed my goal before it even got in the works.
I’ve started a new quest. I call it my imperfection journal. As much as I love writing on my computer, it was killing my creative juices and I found myself going back to edit things I had just written when I was only a few paragraphs in. That’s why I bought a new journal. The main goal of the journal is to have it be a creative mess. I wrote about what I want to do in this journal in frantic scribbles, and accented the points by writing things such as:
“IT’S OKAY TO WASTE
And then I drew a terribly half-assed sketch of my two main characters. Turns out I’m a terrible artist as well. Add that to the list of reasons this journal is unusual for me.
It hurtssss… the perfectionism… must… tidy…
I noticed, though, that it feels kind of… good to write this way. I’m going to try to add more imperfection into my life to make a point about not needing everything to be neatly organized (which is odd because I’m a slob).
Maybe one day I’ll be able to mess with the organization of my iPod. But not yet. That’s a big step on the imperfection quest. Wish me luck!